I reread one of my first posts (posted below) and I’m encouraged. I like the part where I ask “What’s your ambition?” I responded, “Mine is to learn the craft of writing.”
That’s what is important to me. Learning. I am learning at my pace, about what interests me, for me. We all go about learning differently. There’s no right or wrong here.
During the past four months I have read a lot of blogs and to be perfectly honest, I can intimidate the hell out of myself. I question what I’m doing, what I’m getting out of it, where do I see it heading. Who knows?
Bottom line, I’m enjoying myself. My learning curve is off the chart. I’m scaring myself shitless and I’m learning about writing. That is exciting stuff!
August, 2012: Writing beginnings, or propel through fear
We all start somewhere, with a mixed bag of skill sets. A university degree or not, one thing I think we all have in common, at least in the beginning, is a nagging fear – can I write?
Yup. A survival mechanism designed to make us run screaming in the other direction, so, what propels us past the fear and permits ourselves to put words to paper?
What’s your ambition?
Mine is to learn the craft of writing.
How about Desire? Craving?
That sounds intriguing.
Enthusiasm? Spirit? Determination? Stubbornness?
I’ve got them in spades! Do you?
I stepped into my fear and wandered down the well-traveled pantsing road for the first draft of my novel. I’d sketch out a couple of chapters, get them on the page, and plan the next two or three. A partial pantser/plotter! Sure, I had an idea of where the story was going, how the book would end – what I didn’t know though, took me to a week-long writers workshop. Free-expressions
Boo! (Yes, that was an edge for me.)
During that week I started to get a grip on how much I want to learn this art of writing. The fundamentals: premise, stakes, place, characters, plot, tension, and more. What I’d left out, misplaced – was a clear sense of structure.
Now, I don’t know about you, but I like structure. I need structure. A set writing time every day works for me. But this was a different kind of structure. This was story structure.
I came home with a healthy admiration and appreciation for the folks who put on writing workshops. They give us valuable, wonderful tools. We build connections with other writers, and in my case, I also had a list of suggested books to read on writing craft and worldbuilding. A first-time writer, (forgive the analogy) my literary jet left the tarmack and with 34,999 feet to go in the learning curve, well, yeehaw – I got excited! (Trouble is, my piloting skills need honing. My Stealth jet hovers about a foot above the ground!)
One of the books on story engineering, the author Larry Brooks speaks of the components of storytelling. I realized we spend our lives reading, we intuitively understand how things fit together, but to be told this is where that part must go – well, I’d been handed another key to unlock the puzzle on storytelling.
I’ve shifted from pantsing to plotting. With some scenes salvaged from the first draft, and the others planned and in the right places (I hope), I’m ready to begin the rewrite.
Crap. Here’s Fear again, poking about.
Maybe you remember? As a kid, you stood on the rock and looked at the water below. Felt like you were fifty feet up. “Jump!” There’s a nano-second when you’re suspended, and your brain hits the pause button, you can’t decide if you like it, or if you’re scared witless. Gravity takes over; your stomach does some funky flip-flop and you’re in the water.
The point though, I guess, is this: What happens when we plot, plan, imagine and get creative? What happens when we see the world, people and creatures we’ve created in our minds-eye? What happens to our fear then?
I get a swirling sensation in my gut. Anticipation, possibilities, and that, will propel me through my fear.
Creativity. How marvelous is that!
I’m curious. What’s your story?